"i did not expect it to be like this. literally."
I survived the first week of practical lol. It was okay, a little stressful but I'll manage it. Literally on the first day of work, I was handed an assignment to complete in 2 weeks. Obviously I can't revealed it here but the amount of work to be done is just fuhhh. unexplained. haha. I've done almost halfway and I am terrified if I couldn't finish it on time. seriously. Well i guess this week, i'll be staying up again then. nooo, hahaha.
I've never saw how crazy this career is up until last week when I've started practical. it was hectic. The amount of projects that needed to be done, the deadlines, the clients, the stress, the arguments, the tiredness lol what have I got myself into.
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| "am i ready for this?" |
Btw, I'm not saying that I don't like the place that I'm working at. the company was nice. they treated me well and helped me alot too. the ones that are making it hard for me are my own anxiety and low confidence level. which made me scared. or maybe because I'm new in the company and I haven't got to know everyone yet? idk.
One thing that I did alot this week was motivating myself to not be a coward. I was feeling kinda down about this whole new environment because I felt like I've just lost everything that I've learned when I started practical. yeah I was that nervous. Plus, I hate letting people down and I don't want to be scold.I was the one who decided to come and work a month early because I wanted more experience, so I shouldn't be scared right? experience is the part of a learning process. urgh my brain is not copping well with the brainwashing lol.
Anyway that's about it for now. I have to go and pack my things because I'm staying at my aunt's house currently because the company is somewhere around the area and I don't have to go through heavy traffic congestion in the morning lol.
I'm planning to edit my blog again because it's getting boring seeing the same theme but I'm unable to do it now because of the tight schedule. But yeah I'll change it once I have a little free time, hopefully. byee!
I'm planning to edit my blog again because it's getting boring seeing the same theme but I'm unable to do it now because of the tight schedule. But yeah I'll change it once I have a little free time, hopefully. byee!
