I don't know how long am I supposed to pretend,
That all that is involving me and you,
Is bothering the hell out of me.
I don't know how long am I supposed to hold,
These thoughts I've been suppressing,
Acting like you meant nothing more that a close friend.
I kept denying my feelings,
When the truth is I think about you more than I should,
When the truth is I feel so much for you,
When the truth is I want to get to know you,
When the truth is I feel like just a choice to you,
When you're a priority to me,
And you still don't have a slightest idea.
I've spent countless nights thinking of ways to run,
Created thousand of scenarios so I could stop seeing you,
I would have too,
Because if this doesn't get sorted,
One day you're going to come at me,
"Hey guess what, I'm seeing someone now"
And that self-loathing cycle is going to start again,
I don't want to go through that anymore,
Once was more than I could bear.
But I still want you,
What am I supposed to do.
*another failed attempt to write poetry..sort of hahaha; yes it's inspired by BTS Song - The Truth Untold xx
