me:
the guy that I have a crush on :
*gifs has nothing to do with the topic, i thought it was cute and it was relatable kbye ehehe
The thing about overthinking and trying not to give a smallest care about it is that..you ended up caring more than you should anyway, hmmph
You know, I really don't like it when people told me to stop overthinking to be honest. Because if I could, I would've done it. Did you really think that people like me overthinks because we love it? I know I don't, at all. I'm just the kind of person that took noticed of things that I feel mattered. I care too much and that somehow became a problem to others. I'm sorry if this habit became a nuisance to others, I really do. If I could not give a shit about anything, trust me I would have. But I am a human with loads of feelings. I don't like seeing people around me getting hurt; because of others or me. Even if that person is my enemy, I would feel bad af if they're in trouble and I was unable to help. Also I'm that idiot that has trust issues now because of this. I don't get close to anyone these days because I'm too afraid, everytime when things just get a little bit unusual I would have to force myself to tone it down so that people don't get the wrong idea. I don't mind disappearing, I let people find me instead of me creating conversations simply because caring too much these days will get you hurt and I don't want to ever feel that devastated ever again.
I'm blabbering nonsense again aren't it. The darkness is getting into my head again hahaha. It's not even midnight yet. goodnight xx
