A few days ago i came across someone's instagram account and this person posted a picture of his arms full with fresh cuts. Someone commented on his picture saying that it is not his picture and that he took the picture from google image. At the moment i swear i felt pretty upset reading those kind of comments. It seemed like people are missing his point. Okay fine. Even if the picture is from Google image. Can't you see that the person is hurting and maybe he needed comfort or help from someone. You can't just fun out of other people's misery.
It has come to my realization that this matter is getting pretty serious these days. Lately, I've been hearing about alot of people committing suicide especially teenagers. Honestly, it breaks my heart hearing such stories. That proved alot about people still making fun of people that have depression. Please just stop and try to understand more. There are people who needed your help out there and stop being a prick please. I'm tired of people teasing and saying that depression is just a way for attention seekers to grab attention. Well eff you and your opinion! I suffered with this so i know how this feels like. I would like to clarify that the people who self harm didn't do it for attention. I never knew the reason of why I did self harm. But I think to me, I did it because I feel like i need to feel other sort of pain to replace the pain I felt. Maybe at that time I did it because I need to punish myself for something that I felt guilty of. I know, it doesn't make any sense now but in that period of time, it does. I became addicted to the pain. Yes i am well aware now that self harming was something that i shouldn't have done. It is wrong. Just for the record, I've been clean for almost 2 years now and it took alot of patience and endurance to get this far. For that I'm thankful.
The main reason why I wanted to do this post is that I wanted to let you know that there are people who care about you. I care about you. You are not alone. I clearly know that depression is something that is very hard to escape from it. No matter how well you've started to feel, it will always find a way to come and crushed you. I can't even remember how many times I believed that I was doing alright but then my mind is like "nope, you're not fine" and then I'll start crying for no reason but I have no choice but to pick myself up and do something so I can keep my mind from thinking about it. I also know how hard it is to look on the positive side of life when all you feel like shutting down. it is not simple but you have to try. I completely understand the feeling when you saw someone that a lot attractive than you're and how horrible that feeling is. But dear please, you can't keep continue comparing yourself to others and you should know that you, yourself have your own specialty that others don't have. Maybe you haven't found it yet or maybe you do. I know you're pretending like you're okay when deep down you felt like dying. I know how painful it is to say "i'm okay" when you really just not. But honey, truth to be told is that no one can't help you feel much better other than yourself. Even if you reached out to someone and they did help, it wouldn't make much differences unless if you're the one who wanted/allowed the changes. Your way to recovery is completely depends on yourself.
If you're one of the people that are currently experiencing a bad breakup/heartbreak, don't ever be like me. I've wasted 3 years crying buckets of tears for someone that doesn't give a shit about me at all. Being single or alone is not something that you should be scared of at all. Sure there are pros and cons but whatever, live your life the way you wanted to and you can't let a bad breakup stop you from finding someone new. Just so you know, if you're looking for Mr. or Miss. Perfect, they don't exist on this planet. sorry to disappoint. that boy/girl might be attractive, but she/he might lack something and you can't complain about it because you get in a relationship to complete each other and it is not a competition of showing off to the public.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. - Unknown
Life on earth is never easy but that is not a reason for you to give up on life. I saw certain people blaming god for the things that has happened to them. Hello, you can't blame god for something that has happened to you because everything is your life has been written and it is actually a test for you to endure. I know that depression is something that is very serious and life threatening especially in your teen years. It happened to all ages btw. But I can promise you that the feeling will pass and you'll feel better about yourself again once you start to love yourself more. My point is that you have to realise that you're worth it. You're never useless. You're something important. You're breathing on this earth. God has given you the opportunity to live on this planet and you should use the opportunity well before your time is up. Suicide is NEVER the answer.
My simplest advice to everyone out there; If hurts, let go. Life is way too short to waste any time at all. Youre only young for so long, and every moment you spend dwelling on the things that only cause you to hurt, is precious time wasted where you could have been out adventuring around, making more memories to look back on. Nobody wants to remember the nights they sat around crying. They look back at the adventures they had while they were young. The good nights, days, whatever. And when you find someone where it feels like the first time every time, dont let that go. Dont give up without a fight. To hell with anybody who makes you feel like youre ordinary. Dont waste your time. And I'm not kidding, when you find this person, hold tight and do not ever let them go. It rarely happens. And youll know it, because its when you feel most alive. Its a pretty shitty world, no jokes. But you can be happy if you want to be. - Unknown
