Hi (*que awkward waving gesture) pt 1

It has been 4 years (almost?) since my last post hahahaha I feel so embarrassed trying to write this because I was gone for soo long this felt so awkward. Even if I knew no one ( that I knew of) actually read the things I wrote here but still wtf hahahaha should I just stop? 

Does anyone still uses blogspot btw? ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

anyway...I got married (2021) to the same guy I fell inlove with in 2018 and I am now (to my surprise) a mother to a beautiful baby girl (2022). Trust me, I still can't believe I actually became a wife and a mom (especially the mom part hahaha). At this point number 9/September really holds a special place is my heart. 

  • I was born on the 9th January 1995
  • Met my ex-boyfriend (current husband) for the first time 
  • Ex-boyfriend went to Japan on the 14th of September 2018, came back to Msia on the exact date next year
  • My baby girl was born on the 16th of September 2022
Would've been more wonderful if my nikah was in September (I was hoping for 9/9/2021) as well but unfortunately xde rezeki hahaha. I got married in October 2021, it was in the midst of PKP so didn't actually have a choice because everything was just so hectic and strict back then. I got married in Pejabat Agama weh hahaha, mcm buat salah pulak rase time tu๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ I was very grateful tho, we had a simple intimate wedding like I've always wanted.

A few months later, I found out I was pregnant a few days before my honeymoon adoiiii. We were stoked that Allah swt gave us this amanah quite early in our marriage,  Alhamdulillah. Because from the very beginning.. since I knew I'm getting married I was very worried if I couldn't conceive.. not that I have any health problem Alhamdulillah. It was just me.. overthinking as per usual. 

and that's about it for now? I might do a part 2, whenever that might be because these days my life is just fully occupied with being a housewife/working at home mom fuhhh. This is nice, by doing this I actually feel like I'm in my early-mid 20's again. A feeling that I've almost forgotten hahahaha still can't believe this girl is entering 3 series next year. 

till next time, Insyaallah



09.09.2018

 


despite all the ups and downs,

all the fights, 

all the tears,

we had plenty of happy days,

and we still do.

thank you for being my source of strength,

thank you for inspiring me to never give up,

thank you for all the motivation talks,

thank you for being the human guidance that i've always wanted,

and thank you for never giving up on me. 

i have loved you then,

732 days later,

i still love you now,

and i want to keep loving for as long as i can.

happy 2 years anniversary abg ❤️

Hwang Yong-Sik



I haven't written anything Kdrama related for a while now but this time, I can't resist.

I have an immensely huge crush on Kang Ha Neul. Yes. Even my mom approves him hahaha. Out of all his drama characters, I feel like this is by far the best one yet. I have not fallen for a KDrama character in a really long time ever since I started seeing someone hahahaha. But Hwang Yong Sik have caught my attention and I haven't finished watching the drama yet. I just feel the need to rant my feels towards this guy.

anyone else's preference might be different but honestly to me

Everyone deserves someone like Hwang Yong Sik.

Everything that he does is just at the right amount. He's clingy but not obsessive. He's very supportive, He's protective and caring. He doesn't try to change Dongbaek, he just stood by her side and be her strength when she needed. I love the fact that he is straightforward, he know what he wants and he doesn't hold back. He doesn't force Dongbaek to accept him, instead he waits until she's ready. He listens well and he doesn't judge. He's stern only when needed. He always know the right things to say/do. His actions matched with his words. I love seeing how Dongbaek changed so much throughout the drama. It might not be completely because of him but he's presence in her life has made a good impact on her. the kind of healthy relationship I strive for. 

Do you feel me? 


i really hope this drama doesn't break my heart..

also this might be the first Kdrama I've watched where the hero and heroin are at the same status. By same status I meant non of them are Chaebol (rich as fck, heir to throne etc). Both of them work hard to earn a living. It's nice to watch something that I can have some hope to relate to hahaha. 

Pintaku


Kerana sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik bagi setiap hamba-Mu di muka bumi ini Ya Allah. Aku mohon Ya Allah, kurniakanlah aku kekuatan dan petunjuk agar aku dapat menerima dan redha akan pilihan yang kau tetapkan buat diriku. 

Aku berserah segalanya kepada-Mu Ya Allah. 

isi malam




Segembira mana pun dia.

Walau sekerap mana kau melihat dia tersenyum,

Isi hatinya tuhan saja yang tahu,

Dihiris halus berdarah dalam sepi.

Dalam kegelapan menangis sendiri,

Bergantung atas harapan yang tidak pasti.

Masih,

Dia pilih untuk berdiam diri.

Dia pilih untuk terima.

Dia pilih untuk faham.

Dia pilih untuk bertahan,

Selagi mampu katanya. 

Benar kata kau,

Dia gila.

#25 RMO/PKP Thoughts (#StayAtHome #KitaJagaKita)


Here's the thing, I love spending time at home. I love having my own space for me to just rest my head and do my own thing. Kalau dulu weekend mmg aku jarang sgt keluar rumah unless kalau ade important things yg aku nk buat. How many days since this RMO begins? I have officially lost count๐Ÿ˜‚ tapi pretty sure sekarang dh fasa kedua extend until the 28th April 2020. People are saying RMO ni akn  extend kemungkinan smpai raya (hopefully xkan lebih dri tu la) Alot of people are struggling because of this, aku xleh imagine if this extends lebih dri tu.. cmne org nk cari makan.. aku terlari topik pulak hehe

Anyways smbung, awl2 dulu aku ingt I would be fine je kalau aku duk rumah lama2. Yela, aku dh biasa kan? Hah I was wrong, turns out aku cuma spending weekends je kt rumah๐Ÿ˜‚ Pishang gak weh hari2 duk rumah rupanya. Sampai tahap aku rindu nak pergi kerja dh ni. These days hari2 nk kena fikir ape yg aku nk buat kt rumah, I can't just sleep all day.. kalau x malam nnti aku susah tido and bila aku susah tido.. fikiran aku melayang and susah yg amat nk stop.. and aku mne boleh nak spend bnyak masa cmni tgk kdrama, sbb aku jenis yg tgk kena ade mood.. xde mood xjalan๐Ÿ˜‚ 

Hati aku memberontak nak keluar rumah, nak jalan2, nak gi jumpa kawan, nk gi window shopping balik. Pergi keluar panaskan enjin kete pun aku excited gila๐Ÿ˜‚ Ape yg menghalang aku dri x buat semua tu? 1st ofcoz sbb denda kalau kantoi buat perangai tu mahal, aku x mampu๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ 

2nd and yg paling penting, there are people kt luar sana yg tgh bekerja untuk cuba kawal situasi covid ni. Kalau aku.. kalau kita x bgi kerjasama, kita akn ended up menyusahkan diorg and kita jugk. Dah la diorg kena kerja mse kita cuti, stress keje lagi, x dpt nk spend masa dgn org tersayang mcm kita ni, terpaksa berjauhan dgn family lgi. So bersabar la guys. Bagi la kerjasama. 

All we have to do is duduk rumah je kot. Keluar when needed je, itupun sorang je ye. Nak beli makann, mengidam ke ape, beli through online dh la.. abg grab, abg foodpanda & mcm2 abg ade boleh tolong. Use those apps, jgn jadi selfish. Jgn sbb kita, corona berterusan.. Also yg guna apps tu mohon bersabar ye, bukan kau sorang yg order kot wktu PKP ni. Kesian aku baca org2 yg delivery ade yg kena maki.. Diorg risking their lives out there, the least we can do is bersabar la aiyoo..and jangan laaa berkira dgn delivery charge.. aku terbaca ade org complaint dgn delivery charge RM3..are you kidding me.. RM3 je weh.. Diorg pun nk cari rezeki gak.. come on people.. Nak berkira pun biar bertempat..

Tak lama dh Ramadhan akn mula, bagi yg muslim.. dari sekarang we can use this time we have utk dekatkan diri kita dgn Allah swt. Jangan bgi alasan kita xde masa, we got plenty dh kan right now. Aku nk remind diri aku  gak sbnarnya ni๐Ÿ˜…  Jom perbaiki diri sama2 ๐Ÿ’ž Insyaallah even after Ramadhan ends pun, kita teruskan๐Ÿ’ช
  • Perbaiki Solat
  • Perbaiki Bacaan Al-Quran
  • Belajar Buat Solat Sunat
  • Hafal surah2 yg jarang dibaca
  • Learn more about Islam (through podcast, videos etc)
  • Read moree

Tu je kot for now, till the next time. Stay safe everyone. Stay Home!


What is Wrong


Every now and then,

What is wrong.. with showing that you care?

What is wrong.. with asking "are you okay?" to the person you said you loved?

What is wrong.. with being consistent with your efforts?

What is wrong.. with telling her that you genuinely miss her?

What is wrong.. with telling her that you appreciate her?

What is wrong.. with texting her first?

What is wrong.. with calling her first?

What is wrong.. with making her feel wanted?

What is so wrong.. with making some time for the person you love?

I get it, you're a busy person..

I get that, you've got so much to do..

I know that, you have so much to achieve..

but often times I felt left out..

I want the same energy that I gave in return..

I want the same happiness I felt the moment I fell inlove with you..

Was it all my fault that things ended up like this..

Was I asking too much..

Julia



Sebab aku masih ikutkan kata hati aku ni,

Aku masih lagi dekat sini..

Sebab aku sebut nama kau dalam doa aku,

Aku masih lagi dekat sini..

But you probably wouldn't know that.. right?

Even when I tried to explain as calmly as possible,

You still refusing to understand,

It's not just the words that meant the world to me,

It was the routine. 


#24 Thoughts


Imam al-Ghazali berpesan: "Carilah hatimu di tiga tempat. Temui hatimu sewaktu bangun membaca al-Quran. Tetapi jika tidak kau temui, carilah hatimu ketika mengerjakan solat. Jika tidak kau temui juga, carilah hatimu ketika duduk tafakur mengingati mati. Jika kau tidak temui juga, maka berdoalah kepada Allah, pinta hati yang baru kerana hakikatnya pada ketika itu kau tidak mempunyai hati."


Jadikan kematian itu sebagai peringatan dan hidayah. Andai masih tidak mahu berubah ke arah kebaikan, maka dengan cara apa lagi mahu Allah beri hidayah?


Doa Rasulullah saw yang paling banyak adalah: “Wahai Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkanlah hatiku di atas agama-Mu.” Riwayat Imam Ahmad dan al-Tirmizi

- Tulisan Ahmid Shazwan -

is it too late to wish happy new year?


January is not over yet,

Happy New Year!
&
Happy 25th Birthday Kuja!

tak mintak banyak, aku cuma doa semoga apa saja yang aku bakal usahakan/impikan untuk tahun 2020 ni tercapai, semoga tahun ni aku lebih menyayangi/menghargai diri aku sendiri dari tahun2 sebelum ni, semoga aku jadi lebih berani, semoga aku jadi lebih positif, semoga aku dan orang2 yang aku sayang sentiasa ada dengan aku, dikurniakan kesihatan tubuh badan yang baik & dipanjangkan usia serta sentiasa berada dalam lindungan-Nya Aamiinn.

I didn't exactly get to celebrate my birthday the way I want to again this year and if you asked me, honestly I am a little bit bumped out by it because I had hopes but..there's nothing I can do about it, I mean..I've tried..there's always next year..kan?

Anyway,

It's been like half a year and bloody hell aku lupa daratan since my last weight loss update. I don't exactly gain nor lost weight in the past 6-7 months. Okay who am I kidding, berat aku naik turun mcm roller coaster but in a range yg aku rse aku x terlajak naik...unfortunately x terlajak turun jugk..But sis is back with a new years resolution. I'm going to make sure I reached my target before Aidilfitri. I've purposely bought 2 piece of baju raya one size smaller than my actual size just so that I can use that as a motivation. Last year I did the same thing and it works, so why not try this again kan. If this works out well then there will be a continuation of Misi Kurus Kuja, lol.

Next, if I were to recap what my 2019 is like. Honestly I would like to erase some memories of it if I could. There's literally wayyyyyyyy tooooo muchhh crying involved last year. really awful bitter tears too. But despite the bitterness, ada jugak la yg manis..tpi knapa aku rse pahit lagi bnyak ahahahah..gurau.. 2019 was the year my mind was brutally challenged, I've learned and realized a lot of things about myself both things I love and things I hate. I've loved harder than I did in any previous relationships and knowing that scares me alot too. But I'm good; we're still good alhamdulillah. I'll write more when I have the chance. bye xx


#23 Thoughts

Ada orang jodoh dia lambat sebab:

- Allah nak dia bahagiakan mak ayah dia dahulu.

- Allah nak dia perbaiki solat dan akhlak dia dahulu.

- Allah nak dia fokus pada kerjaya supaya kehidupan dia nanti senang.

- Allah mahu kita belajar terus sabar dan sentiasa berdoa kepada Dia.

sabar..Allah swt knows what's best for you.

14/09/2019

For you;



365 days since you left,

365 days of rindu,

365 days of patience,

365 days of wishing you were closer,

and a bunch of arguments here & there,

you finally walked through the "Arrival Gate",

wearing denim shirt and black jeans,

with that smile of yours that i love dearly,

i froze almost instantly,

it feels too good to be true,
(it still does, till now)

it felt like a whole load of sadness went away the moment i saw you,

those "bad days" i had with you doesn't seemed like a big deal at all,

and i can't even put into words to describe how relieved i felt,

all that i can say is that i am happy,

all that time spend waiting was worth it,

because you're home,

you're breathing the same air as i am,

living in the same timezone,

experiencing the same "3 season" weather,

you're finally home,

i'm glad that we made it through the first 365 days,

and i'll look forward to spend the next 365 days with you,

i love you so much ❤️

sincerely,
your "selamanya baby" ๐Ÿ˜†



#22 Thoughts

I went to war with myself, for you 
The least you could do was acknowledge the fact that I've fought so hard for us; for you.


Misi Kurus Kuja pt 3


This is definitely delayed sorrrry I've been busy dealing with some stuff but I am here with good progress hehehe.

I'VE DROPPED 7 KG IN 2 MONTHS YASS

Thank god I finally felt like I've managed to put myself on the right track again eventho I went full on sesat for a year. After completely changing workout and eating habits, it totally showed some progress weh I feel like crying whenever I think about it. Also aku rse mse bulan puasa ni pun membantu gak kot sebab aku kurangkn makan and exercise sket2. Despite having to cut Cardio Dancing mse bulan puasa, I am glad those simple 300-400 burn calories workout I set during fasting months worked. I focused more on short HIIT workouts rather than dancing last month. 

Now that aku dh spoil myself for a week because of raya, I am so ready to drop few more kgs until Dee's wedding. Aku x tau lah kenapa time wedding kawan2 aku, semangat aku nak turunkan berat aku jadi lagi mendadak, Ikin wedding 2 years back, I lose over 15kg+ in less than a year. I just want to look good in pictures and in clothes obviously. Also aku ade lgi satu reason but I'll save that to myself because it's embarrassing but it definitely motivates me to keep going.  

Anyway I got less that 3 months to lose more less 10kgs (until I reached my goal weight obviously), hella worried but super excited to start this again. I've made some changes yet again sbb aku jenis cepat bosan bila buat benda sama. Dapat gaji lagi aku nak target running shoes so I can start jogging properly again and maybe..just maybe join fun run ke marathon ke hehe. Don't want to write all that yet sebab plan masih jauh di hadapan. Insyallah next update I'll write more details about the type of workouts and my eating regiments, until then..*tepuk diri sendiri..goodluck! 

Mek & Mok


Aku baru dapat mood nak menulis balik hehe. Also  Happy Eid Mubarak for those who are celebratingg, Maaf Zahir & Batin!

I don't really know when it started but I always knew that I loved cats since I was little. Took me years to convinced my parents that I wanted to have my own, after a while they tewas hehe

My cats are probably not the most manja compared to others. They don't like being held for a long period of time..both of them will start mengelupur to escape.  I like how mischievous they can be, how adorable and crazy they can be at times. They would instantly be in hide and seek mode whenever they heard stranger's footsteps and they would never leave the spot until the coast is clear. Which sometime could troublesome for me because I get worried easily knowing they haven't eat, drink nor poop for hours, so whenever this kind of things occurred I would sneak them to the kitchen so they can do their business๐Ÿ˜‚


As you see in the picture, Mek (yg warna gelap) was not in a good shape when I first got her. Mok was definitely alot healthier compared to her. Owner lama diorg ni dh mcm redha if aku x amek si Mek because she was so sick. Badan penuh dengan kurap,kurus gila, kutu lagi and mmg x active, dia bnyak duk sorang2. Kucing2 lain semua xnak main dgn dia. But somehow I can't just leave her there because if I did, aku takut dia mati sia2 je nanti. She and Mok was the smallest ones there. So I couldn't ditch her, aku mmg nekad nak bgi dia sihat. I can honesly say she was not getting a good treatment based on her condition. Also aku x salahkan owner lama sebab dia mmg bela banyak kucing, cat maintenance is not easy plus expensive when it comes to vet treatments. 

Anyway as soon as I got them, the next day I bought them to the vet. Only to found out that...Aku ingtkn kucing aku ni seekor jantan seekor betina, pergi vet, both betina weh..sabo je lah ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ Even the doctor questioned why I would take in si Mek. He was not sure that Mek would survived, yes it was that serious. Alhamdulillah si Mok was in a healthy condition. She just needs some basic meds..as for Mek. Sebulan lebih gak lah aku bertarung bagi ubat kt baby aku yg seekor tu, Compare to Mok, ubat dia jauh lagi banyak hoii. Dah lah bnyak.. lepas tu ubat besar2, boleh lah imagine cmne aku gaduh nak sumbat ubat dlm mulut dia, dengan badan kuruih cmtu ishh. Pretty sure 2-3 months after getting them mmg aku bnyak ulang alik gi vet dengan budak dua ekor tu. Mcm2 hal wktu tu dengan diorg, ade je benda yg tak kena. Thankfully we made through. Previous experience with Simbaq have taught me that they both need to be vaccinated as soon as possible, So aku memang buat tu secepat yang mungkin baru aku rse tenang. 

After 6 months from the 1st picture. Mok got fatter and Mek got healthier alhamdulillah

No one actually expect si Mek would recover, even aku pun awl2 have my doubts. But baby is definitely strong and only mengada (in her way) dgn aku, literally. She follows me everywhere in the house. She doesn't really get close but she just wants me to be in her sight (I found that behavior to be cute af) Worth it lah aku susah sket mse nak tolong sihatkan dia, tgk2 aku ended up ade peneman hehe. Meanwhile si Mok manja dalam diam..bukan dgn aku..dengan ibuu. My mom would tell me stories about Mok urut2 her/bergesel/mintak urut dia lah and she can't even get it on tape because apparently Mok knows when she gets recorded which is annoying because I got jealous, obviously๐Ÿคฆ


Casually sitting on my bed waiting for the lights to be out so she can doze off sampai subuh, Yes, Mek kalau tido, dia jarang sgt bangun pagi2 buta. Dia ikut tido smpai tuan dia bangun hahaha. Si Mok 3am-5am is her hunting time (memang mcm most cats, Mek is different compared to her) I'm just glad she's doing so much better now, melimpah2 bulu dia sebab telan ubat lebat bulu agknya dulu.


Aku pantang tgk Mok cmni mmg aku kacau sebab aku geram, dia kuat mengigit, lantak pi lah dia gigit pun janji aku dapat usap perut dia hahaha. She's definitely living up to her name GeMok. But thankfully she's not obese, just chubby. She doesn't eat anything other than kibbles & tuna treats, mmg cerewet when it comes to food. Aku try bagi makann ayam, ikan rebus/goreng ke ape, dia reject, poyo gila mkcik ni.


It's difficult trying to take these two in a picture because at times whenever they get close, tau nak bertumbuk je. Especially after visiting the vet, I would have to seperate Mek from Mok because fat ass tends to get a bit moody, she hates going to the vet hahaha. Next month is their annual vaccination, wish me luck aduhh



in loving memory of simbaq, up until now I still wish I could have done better as your owner. miss you still..



Misi Kurus Kuja pt 2

This. Is. Not. Going. Well

Gave myself to 2 months. My weight still remains the same. Honestly I am frustrated. Effort aku tak cukup and aku sedar tu. I want to lose weight healthily, tone my body, build muscle and make sure my skin doesn't sag (my biggest concern right now) without taking slimming pills/detox teas. I swear I got intrigued by those advertisments a couple of times now, tapi cekalkan hati aku sbb aku tau benda2 tu tak baik untuk aku for the long run. I do not want to take shortcuts when it comes to my body (melainkan kalau traditional remedy yg tak ada pengunaan chemical then yes mungkin I'll give it a try)

If there's one thing aku actually regret is the fact that last year aku on off dgn workouts aku. Tak sedar diri, dah lah quit gym, lepas tu murung & ended up stress eating (also aku mmg pencinta makann, this has been both my medicine and my pain), Aku gained 8kg literally dlm setahun semua sbb aku x consistent. Again, salah sendiri!

And sbb aku janji by end of May aku nak drop atleast until 65kg, I terrified on whether or not this can actually be done; because I legit have like 12kg to lose. Mmg lah aku xde janji dgn sesape, this deal aku buat solely dgn diri sendiri and aku boleh ubah ayat aku kalau aku nak. Tpi kalau aku cancel this meaning aku x guna lah sbb failed nak discipline kan diri sendiri. So I am not giving up. Aku dh planned out jadual baru again tdi. Tinggal nak bako semangat ni haa bgi berkobar2 sket. 

Currently my lower back dah lengguh2 pulak ni. Sakit sbb kemungkinan posture aku mse aku workout tak brape betul or aku mungkin dh push diri aku a little bit too hard lately ni. Al kisah nya, aku balik kampung last week and sedara + mkcik aku dtg rumah pulak lepas tu. Weh tu semuanya pakar masak sedap2, kalau x makan nnti takut diorg merajuk (typical alasan hahaha) Even kalau mak aku masak kt rumah pun aku susah lah kalau tak tambah. My mom has been busy lately ni and dia dh jarang masak. When she cooks, aku mmg akn failed hahaha sbb aku rindu masakan mak aku.

Anyway hopefully April and May ni akn ada progress. Dapat sikit pun jadilah weh dari tak de langsung but I will keep going. May nnti dh masuk bulan puasa and aku kena ubah lgi jadual aku sbb aku nak focus on more on Ramadhan dari dieting or working out. Insyaallah aku akan balance kan. Aku xleh stop working out selagi aku x smpai target and selagi aku x biasa dgn active lifestyle, kalau aku stop nnti nak start balik tu susah and the yoyo effect akan take over (mcm last year) All the best, Kuja. 

What to Ask Allah - Khutbah by Nouman Ali Khan




Whatever I wrote down here works as a reminder for myself because alot of the things he said hits me (in a good way) like bullets. I needed answers. To gain a deeper understanding, watch the video instead. It is worth it.



Human beings tend to be defensive,

Human beings have good views of themselves,

But they make lots of excuses,

They keep throwing excuses.


If you're going to seek Allah SWT forgiveness,

You have to find the time,

And it doesn't matter if you don't know arabic,

You speak to Allah SWT (in a language that you know and understood),

And you genuinely admit to Him what you've done wrong,

And don't make excuses.


It's really hard to do that,

Because even when you stand in the mirror,

You lied to yourself,

You tell yourself "I'm not that bad",

"I have reasons for what I did",

"I have justification, I've been through alot".


Don't give Him the reasons,

He knows your reasons better that you do,

It's impossible for human being to open up so vulnerable,

Before anyone and especially Allah SWT,

Because to the world, 

You have to show yourself as strong and confident,

Everybody else sees you and think everything is okay,

But the only one who knows that Nothing is Okay,

is Allah SWT.


You need to come to Him openly,

Without any filters,

Without any hesitations,

Without no guard,

With no shame,

Openly (verbally;speak not whispering) admit to Allah SWT, 

How messed up you've been, 

And how you've messed up,

Then you're going to be in the position to ask for forgiveness.

Starting Over (Misi Kurus Kuja pt 1)


Setelah lama aku bercuti dari exercising, on off for about a year, xleh nak focus, hilang motivation mendadak skejap and kemalasan tu memuncak gak unfortunately hahaha. But I am finally starting over my diet and workouts yeayyy. No gym. Just short workouts 3-5 times a week, maintain jadual makan but cutting off air gula and junk food (man i have to try). Should be able to turun 5-15kgs in 2-4bulan Insyaallah. Reason knape I decided not to join the gym? Sbb aku takut nnti aku masuk gym aku lupa daratan (biar aku sorang je faham ni xpe kot haha) and aku boleh adjust masa ikut kesesuaian aku, xyah pakai duit banyak and aku genuinely lagi suka berlari anak kt area rumah aku, cuma the only problem yg aku kena deal is sifat malas. Kalau tu aku lepas then everything will be okay. Just nak biasakan diri tu je yg susah sket mula2 ni. Duk rumah kan, faham2 lah hahaha katil tu sentiasa memanggil untuk tidur huhu. Anyway akan aku updatekan lgi misi aku utk cecah range 60-65kg before end of May Insyaallah.


#21 Thoughts


Aku letih dgn perangai aku cmni weh. sblum everything gets out of hand tolong lah just make all these negative thoughts hilang..aku completely tau aku yg overreacting ni which makes it worst sbb aku apparently xkuat langsung nak control my thoughts. aku tenang skejap then dia mai ketuk pala lgi kuat. xleh ke kuza tolong just for goddamn sake please just calm yourself down, jgn dok menyusahkan org lain you've been doing fine kot all this time. tapi kenapa tiap kali this happens kau jadi gini, every.single.time. now dah what, for 3 straight weeks moody gini. jangan buat org menyampah ngan kau. org lain ade more important stuff to deal with in their life kuza, where the hell is yours. your're overthinking way too far to the future, you know that. stop. live in the present please laaa; one day at a time, ce bertenang!

5 Ways to Win My Heart



  • Be 100% Loyal and Honest with Me 
  • Be Responsible
  • Be Attentive
  • Be Humble because I really can't tolerate cocky guys
  • Be Respectful/Supportive 
I don't go for materials because my mom have taught me well enough having loads of money can't get you anywhere in live if you don't have the right attitude for it. Don't go looking for a guy with money & status; instead look for someone that has a good relation with The Creator (Allah swt)

I know most of men in my country would say those lines are too cliches because "girls say that all the time but always go for the handsome & rich ones"

NOW WHICH KIND OF GIRL ARE YOU ACTUALLY REFERRING TOO? 

You reap what you sow guys. Be careful.
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